Lost Without You

Boringssss

2005-01-01T01:30:00.000-08:00

1.30am and i just woke up.. hahas~ I slept alot today wor, no choice lar nothing to do at all today.... so the only thing to let time pass quickly is to slp ^_^ actually dun want blog de... but but laopo ask me to blog!!!! Hahassss wo hen guai ba laopo~ she ask me blog so i blog lorrr cannot disappoint her de mar.. Laopo~~ Ru guo Yi Kai Shi Ni Ai De Ren Shi Wo!!! Lolssss love this song alot.. so meaningful!!
Hmmmm now i thinking whether can i get to slp later or not T_T later still haf to get to ailing house at 130pm ar... tml is ktv sessioN!!! YEAH~~ I love to go ktv sing song~~ =D arhhHh Wo bu zhi dao yao write what le lar.. so i end here le hahas Love YA LaopO~~ lolsss Zhu Ni Xing de yi nian Tian tIan Kuai Le ^_^

Christmas!~~~

2004-12-25T11:45:00.000-08:00

ARhHhh went out with Yixin today~~ so happy wor.. been a long time since i see her already, the moment i see her my heart melt le.. lols~ she is such a dear and sweet person to me.. i love her ^_^ but i know she do not love me anymore....
Went to watch meet the fockers with her... a MUST WATCH SHOW hahas very funny show wor.. after watching the show we went home le... and finally get to open the present she gave me.. hais.. she give me a bear with a tag FOREVER FRIENDS... haisss i wanted to cry when i saw this but nv cry la.. i am man mar cannot anyhow shed tears de..
Maybe one day she will change her mind... until the day i meet another one i love, i believe i will still love her.. =)

Getting boring and more boring..

2004-12-20T23:30:00.000-08:00

Life is getting very boring... alot of things come across my mind, i have been thinking why am i in this world when i dun even know my purpose of coming into this world. Nowadays Msn also quiet le.... only have a few ppl toking to me, my "laopo" also dunno go where already, haven't been seeing her on msn lately..
The day i no longer love you is the day i no longer exist.. nice phrase ba, i think myself de okay!! Hees~ this phrase of course is for "her" hmmm the her is the one i love of course hahas. I am still waiting for the day for me and her to be together again to come... yar i know i am a fool but i am this stubborn so no need to even try to persuade me.. but thanks anyway for caring ^_^ toking to wu ming anyway lols~~
Christmas coming le!!!! Already decided to get yixin a lacoste perfume, peiwen a winnie the pooh, wu ming(still thinking), michelle ang(still thinking), michelle tan(this one very ma fan) . Still got who ner.. actually wanted to buy for laopo de, but i dun think i haf the chance to pass it to her ba hahas.. anyway if anybody have any ideas what to buy for the (still thinking and the ma fan one) pls tell me hor =D hmmm toking about michelle ang ARhHHhhh Ni qu na li le!!!!!!! ARgHhhzzz i miss her siaaaaaa miss her nonsense, it haf been weeks since she tok to me le!!! ArhHhh SI XIAO BIAN FASTER REPLY MY SMS!!!!!!!!

I lost the colours in my life

2004-12-13T23:10:00.000-08:00

Everything to me now is black and white.... i no longer can see the colours in my life. Every moment with her just seems like a dream that actually do not happen before.. but i believe one day i will get back the colours of my life and make my life Duo Zhi Duo Cai again!!! ^_^ I will wait for tt day to arrive..or maybe wait for the person who can make my life full of colours to arrive.
Went Shopping today with my frdss, been a long long time since i went shopping le.. bought 2 T-shirt 1 for $36 and 1 for $20, and also an adidas shoe for $130 ~ hmm so total i spent is...$186 wow~ and i am getting at least a jean for myself tml!!!! This few days got the urge to buy things la... so must faster go buy or else next time no feeling le then who pull me also no use le lols~
Hmmm christmas coming... if i can make 3 wishes, i wish that "laopo" will live happily from now onwards.. because she is always having so much problems, haisss everyone's life just have their own up and downs... 2nd i wish that all my true frds will still remain as my true frds ^_^ because i love all my frds!!! They are just so wonderful... last wish, i wish that one day if i die... i can be buried beside the one i love the most hahas scary wor but.. yar this are the 3 wishes, may my wish come true =)

RejecTed...

2004-12-08T21:10:00.000-08:00

Hais.. she finally reply me, she said it is best that we remain as frds.. hahas suan le ba i guess we just end here...yar end here. Everything will just be memories, it will be like a dream... thanks yixin.. for the wonderful moments u once given me. I am sure i will remember =) i hope u remember it too...
I guess just loving a person cannot really bring happiness, i haf to do more than just loving tt person.. anyway went drinking in a pub with my frds yesterday night.. first time going, reason going there is because everyone of us are very sad... one just break off with his gf, one haf problems with a girl he is wooing now and for me.. just go rejected by my ex for a patch. We named it the NAtional Sad Day HAhas~ drank quite alot there, almost drunk ba because my vision also blur le... but i still haf to send my frd back home because he is drunk and in the end endure until i reach home... hAiss but i was not drunk and i could not forget all my sorrows.. nvmss... i am a strong person!!!!!! I will surely get over it very soon =D
ARhhHHhh TML IPPT and i fractured my leg...wth sia but lucky slight fractured only... hope i can endure for tml's running.. hope dun run halfway and my leg cannot take it T_T GooD lUck For mE!!!! Super kan jiong now lols~

still waiting...

2004-12-06T20:20:00.000-08:00

Tok to laopo yesterday... i told her i was thinking whether i should ask for a patch with my ex or not... i thought for the whole day, and today i finally have the courage to ask her whether is it possible for me and her to be together again?? I am still waiting for the answer.. guess she needs time to think or maybe she dun even want to reply T_T hais... i just miss her so much.
Today wu ming come back from malacca le lols, ke wu lar nv buy present for me!!!!! ARghhzzz suan le i forgive her.. because i kuan rong da liang de hees but wu ming next time remember buy present for me!!! Ermmm no need to expensive la maybe $100 present can le :P anyway this wu ming hor i think she super girl la... just come back from malacca hor straight away can go sentosa -_- her body maybe got super resistance to tiredness lolsss not like me everyday so tired.
ARHHhH thursday my IPPT(fitness test) ARHhHhh I SCARED!!! I too lOng nv run le... think i cannot make it le lar T_T surely cannot get my ippt gold le... suan le aim for silver this time ba.. pray pray.. Everybody wish me good luck okay?? hEes~ Those who wish me good luck hor can live up to 100 yrs old lolssss and can live happily ever after!!!

What do i really want?

2004-11-28T20:10:00.000-08:00

Hais..tot i haf already put down the past memories with my ex, but dunno why.. i just kind of think of her everytime. Yar i admit i like wu ming but... i just know that my ex still means alot to me.. lucky wu ming also nv like me~ or else i think i will dui bu qi her le...
Everytime my ex comes online.. my heart just tell me i still love her, she is just such a wonderful thing to me :) everytime i think of her i will just smile.. because she is so sweet but at the same time.... of course i still feel upset. Everytime i tok to her i just wanted to tell her... "I love you" or maybe i wanted to ask her "Can we be together again?" but i do not haf the courage.. i scared when she says no i will be upset for another long period of time... haiss
Toking to her online just make me upset also.. everytime i tok to her, she just answer only a few words... i really try to find something to tok to her but it seems like she is not interested in anything i tok to her, maybe she do not want to give me the wrong feeling that we might be together again.. but sometimes i really hope she can tok to me and ask me "how are you doing?" or maybe "what have u been doing lately?" Haiss.. I am just so lost What do i really want? i do not know.. i do not even know whether i can choose what i want or i have to follow my fate.

THe shutter

2004-11-27T01:30:00.000-08:00

went to watch the shutter just now...midnight show ar!! OMg LOR tt show is freaking scary lo!!!!!!! This show is basically about ling yi zhao pian(spiritual photos), this show is highly recommeded to watch!!! Basically toking about a female ghost pestering a photographer.. why she pester him ermmm u all watch urself la, tell u already might as well dun watch... Alot of very very very ermmmm thrilling parts? Surely keep u awake for the whole show lo!!!
Watching polar express later with ermm tt cannot say name person...ok lar from now onwards name her as "wu ming" =D or else "laopo" want to say my english no gd again hahasss yesterday try to explain cannot say tt wu ming real name but my "laopo" got confused by me...tot i toking about alot of ppl lols~~ hope that i can slp in peace later... T_T

Hi~

2004-11-25T23:05:00.000-08:00

Been some time already since i haf started blogging again... just too bored le!!!!!!!!!!!!! HaissS mY "wife" today not online... qu na li le ne~ kind of miss her hahas remember what she say to me i think past 2 days ba.. ArhHHh Dun tell u all what issit HAhas oUr little Secret lai de.. hor laopo =D lols~~
I finally start listening jay songs HAHA!!! Got 1 person like his songs marsss so must pei he her like jay zhou songs also lols~~ but hor tt person ask me dun write about her here so better not say her name ar.. later she scold me T_T dun always scold me lar... i will sad de lor T_T hahas just kidding.. i very da ren yo da liang de :P
My sister getting married le... soon ba i guess haiss so lucky.. she can live happily ever after soon with her prince charming le.. when will my princess appear!!?? Princess ar princess if you are around me.. just come out ba, i am lazy to wait le hais T_T actually kind of find this princess le.. but but SHE DUN LIKE ME!! ARHHH SiansS x 10 LOr~~ haisss sad T_T again she say cannot write about her here so cannot say is who also lols~ WEi this person cannot say ur name de, remember we watching polar express together hor!! lOls~

Tired

2004-11-20T01:00:00.000-08:00

What can i say? TIred Tired Tired Tired TOO TIRED TO BLOG TODAY!!! HAHAssss Next time then blog =P

Best frd to bad frd

2004-11-19T22:45:00.000-08:00

My day off today.. went out with my frd today. We first went to bugis to haf seoul garden and after that went to haf my karaoke at bedok until 7pm. After that we proceed back home.... and saw my gd frd on msn, and actually he told me to go for the creative warehouse sale on a sunday.. but in the end he changed it to friday suddenly.
Now the problem is i actually already made a deal with janice to meet her insurance agent on friday 1pm.. so i had no choice, since i already promised janice i had to go for it. So i informed my gd frd about this... and he said that the insurance thingy is not important at all i could postpone it... so i actually called janice again to try to change the timing but too bad janice say tt it is not possible.. so i had to stick to the timing. I told dennis about i could not meet him on a friday.. and now in msn he was scolding me -_- scolding me for breaking my promise to go with them for the creative warehouse sale. I was actually still not tt pissed off when he scolded me.. but when he said "chunwei seriously speaking is going out with us that boring?" WTH how could he say tt!!! i had been gd frds with him for more than 5 yrs and been together for many outings and activities, and now he said that to me.... i was really upset when he said tt.. going out with them is boring to me, that is what he tot.. so i am such a frd to him. I could not believe he said that and that showed how he think about me.. thank you for letting me know how u think about me.. "MY GD FRD"

Fitness drop T_T

2004-11-16T23:30:00.000-08:00

FInally back To camp after ermm.. let me see...3 days of rest =D brought my running attire with me because i promised my frd to run with him today... so we went for the 5km run at about 3pm. Hais.. i think i haf not really exercise for quite a long time already... just running 5km is like carryings tons for weight and running from bedok to yishun. ARhHHH I feel so ashamed of myself!!!! From today onwards i must everyday go running le!!!!!!! By december must clear my ippt!!! Ermmsss.. ippt is something like ermm... fitness test ba. At least must get a silver ar, or else i might as well go die suan le lols~~
Haiss another problem is my hp!!!! IDIOT PHONE.. stupid nokia 6230. When ppl send sms in my hp will just restart by its own!!! WTH.. just got it yesterday only and so much problems already....hais.. just very upset but still very engrossed in my new phone hahas.. went around taking photos of my frds. Ying xia sms me at night.. hahas she forever forever so entertaining de ar~~ just love her!!! LOLS~~ but she dun like me lar hahas.. wo yi xiang qing yuan de. lOls~~
AFter that at night went to 85 market to haf my dinner with my frds.. eat grilled fish~~ SUANG :P make u all salivate!!! Not only eat tt.. still got grilled sotong ar... chicken wing~~ and tang yuan =D u all xian mu le ba~~ after that went to haf a game of pool then went home le.. tiring day ar T_T

Useless POH

2004-11-14T21:05:00.000-08:00

Just feeling so pissed off... i know that it is my fault for not studying and i know it is my fault to fail my exams.. but why can't they stop scolding and nagging me!!!!!!! Yar the they are my parents.. i have had enough just now because they even asked my sister to scold me just now. I am already so upset about my results and instead of just letting me think what i am supposed to do now.. they just kept scolding me everyday. YAR I AM USELESS just keep saying that i am useless to me because i know i really am useless. What to say, i got into a normal academic class in secondary and i took my '0' levels two times and now i could not even get my diploma, yar so everyone assumed i am useless and i admit it. From now onwards i am known as the useless poh okay?

Just really hope that my this life can just end faster because it is really so miserable to me... no matter on love side, studying side or family side...everything is just a failure to me.

Love...hurts

2004-11-13T21:45:00.000-08:00

Today is my off day.... yesterday night my frd gf called me, she told me tt my very good brother gilbert break off with her already...hais, their 3 yrs relationship is just over like this. She is crying as she tok to me...haiss listen already just very heart breaking. Everything this girl do...she do it for her bf and in the end what she get is not what she want.

Got home already and tok to "wife" online... wo de "wife" ar likes to tok about her bf T_T makes me jealous everytime hahas but suan le i am the 3rd party mar no choice.. making her happy just makes me happy also hahas dunno why also~~ so what she wants i will try to get for her ba... try la i not superman loL went to slp about 1 plus plus ba... woke up ard 6 plus and went to haf my dinner with donald the lamer lols~~after that my frd gf call me crying again.. haiss she just cannot stop thinking of my good brother.. but sometimes no matter how long is the relationship.. this kind of things just will happen.

Saw Ying Xia sms~~~ dunno why kind of happy hahahas.. maybe because she too entertaining le lar...everytime she sms i just want to laugh de lehs haha.. she send a sms and ask me make a wish.. so i just wish she can live happily forever!!! =D Ying xia see i so gd wish for u de hor lolsssss but she just scold me flirt T_T make me so sad lo... wah lau.... must got feeling then can flirt with tt person de mar, not anyone i also flirt de lorss must like like then can de mar.. SI ying xia, wo tao yan ni!!!! Hahass!!!!

Deepavali~~~not my business lols

2004-11-11T20:45:00.000-08:00

Woke up today with nothing to do... so sms michelle and get her to accompany me to watch princess diary 2.. THanks ar xiao bian!!! Hahas but after that keep scolding me for taking up her studying time T_T princess diary 2 is just like any typical romance story ba... but just very funny to see a princess doing those stupid stuffs hahas.. got some touching parts too T_T make my tears nearly flow down...but but i REN, cannot anyhow let my tear roll down ar or else later michelle will laugh at me de!!!
After the show went to sing ktv lor~ sing for 2 and a half hours.. so freaking tired T_T but quite fun lar hahas because tt michelle just always make me laugh de lor.. just sing sing sing and ying xia msg me.. promise to bring her to seoul garden next week ba, because tml got duty ar.. hais~~ I HATE DUTY but no choice got money take hahas so just do ba.. As usual tt ying xia sms surely haf something to qi me de lar hahas but still so entertaining lols~~ i and michelle finish singing at 6pm ba.. then meet dennis and donald for dinner.. but we 3 are just boring ppl... and so after that we went home le...T_T we just haf boring life...
At home lucky got "wife" accompany me... always online can tok to her =D i and her hor although know each other for not long but i like alot of things to tok to her de lehs.. hahas then got problems can share with each other... =) Thx LAopo!! MUaCksss hahas~~

Tiring day..

2004-11-09T21:20:00.000-08:00

Just another tiring day... today morning just super hot lor!! Got to stand and welcome the vip today.. stand in the sun whole day guess going to be even more sick liao...

Tok to Ying Xia today, she forever so entertaining de lors loLs~~ just love toking to her and disturbing her because her reaction is so funny de =D somemore always want to purposely qi me hahas but actually i not pissed off at all lar.. Tok tok to to her suddenly just make me remember her.. this her is somebody once very special to me. Hais.. although i nv tok about her in front of my frds or anyone but...i just know that i still love her. I was just wondering how she is doing now.. wondering whether she have a bf already not.. wondering and wondering... just alot of wonderings about her. Maybe one day we will be together again, maybe not..who knows anyway but life still haf to move on no matter what happens... must look ahead u noe hahas~ if 1 day she start accepting me again.. and for tt day i can just only hope that i am able to love her again..maybe i am attached already, Maybe i am not in this world anymore..or maybe...anything else we can think of...nobody will know what will happen to us the next day until tt day comes. For those we are already together now, treasure each other... dun wait until everything bad happens and u start to regret... it will be too late.

Love all my frds........DaO's Family, *Munxin* Bu wang ji ni =D, SAFEC brothers, Tp Buddies, my daughter peiwen~,Michelle Ang the xiao bian, my xiao mei Ailin and and ermmm.... ok lar ~ying xia~ lar since u so entertaining Hahassss~~ =X

So So SO SO SO SIcK

2004-11-08T18:45:00.000-08:00

Sians... getting worst le T_T slp also cannot slp properly. Just so xing ku lor.... few days ago still tell ppl that i wun get sick... then suddenly next day jiu sick le T_T WTH!!! Down with slight fever, running nose and sore throat... but just dun want to see doctor because...ermssss i also dunno why la hahas tml big shot coming then dunno must stand in camp for how long hais... WHy big shot always like to come our camp!!! I hate them!!!!HAte them to the core..because everytime they come, we will haf to prepare alot of things to make the vip feel that they are important. ARghss... Suan le WO REN since wed my pay day =D still thinking what to do with my pay... think most importantly i will buy a mp3player ba...

My "wife" today missing le~~ kind of miss her hahas although she is only "wife" with the 2 things beside lOlss~~ Suan le i guess will get to see her in the night ba.. =D everytime so late then will be online de.. Miss ya~~ hahas~~ everybody lets pray for me to get well soon ok?? hahasss thanks ar =D because i really hate to get sick T_T

ArhHH She IS Pregnant!!!!

2004-11-06T16:10:00.000-08:00

Sians....today ying xia sms me and told me jia jing wen is pregnant liaos...i was so upset... She is not even married yet!!! WTH dunno which idiot go make her pregnant... hais... my jia jing wen not perfect already T_T~~ anyway this ying xia purposely want to make me sad and angry -_-" every sms she send surely will put some suanning in it de hahas... but still she very entertaining lar, at least i got something to do =D

I am now still in camp actually...just dunno what to do here, just so super duper bored here... sit down here at the chair looking at the boring tv programmes -_-" lucky my "Wife"
always online de hahas.. so i can just log in msn and tok to her... she was bored too :( too bad cannot all the while pei her tok..i am on duty wor!!! Must act act abit sometimes go down check check my guards awhile... lols~ or else later ppl tot i nv do my duty ar... waiting and waiting and waiting and now is only 4pm..wth i can only book out tml morning 9am ARGHHHHSSS this kind of feeling is just killing me!!! So tired yet cannot sleep... So bored yet nothing to do... -_-"

Funny guy..

2004-11-05T17:49:00.000-08:00

Just a funny day in camp... all because of a guy inside the camp. I nv met such a funny person before or should i say blurest person? Everything he do is just a funny act to us... example... ermsss let me see~~~~ ok my frd who is a superior to this blur fellow ask him cut his hair but this blur fellow just did not cut his hair.. and so my frd got so fed up and ask him to change into his Number 4 which is our army uniform in 5 mins time. So after he get changed and got up he was late by 5 mins.. and so my frd questioned him how long he was late.. and my frd even told him that it was 1017 he went down and now was 1027... obviously everybody knows he was late by 5 mins since he was given 5 mins allowance time to change but this blur guy just took so long to answer lols~ and so my frd got angry and give him a calculator to calculate and this blur guy really took the calculator to count -_-" after calculating he told us he was late by 10 mins T_T and so my frd ask him another question asking him whether how long he need to answer us how long he was late lols.. and he got confused again. I just wanted to laugh but guess better not laugh... dunno whether he acts blur or he is just really a blur guy... just alot of things funny happen which i am lazy to say hahas... if want to know ermss ask me ba.

Got home ard 6pm and immediately went to 85 market at bedok to meet my frds for dinner. Ate alot of things today, first pig organ soup then carrot cake, rojak and fruits. We just keep ordering and ordering... just so poor now T_T can't wait for my pay day to come!!!Oh yar just got home after meeting my frds and omg my father was waiting at home for me with a crab for me T_T just so full but i guess i haf to eat since i dun always haf the chance to eat it hahas~ ok la... dunno what to say already also, shall stop here for the day!!

First one

2004-11-04T12:27:00.000-08:00

Ermsss dunno what to write also... let me think awhile. Thinking......thinking....thinking.....thinking.......arh yar today went for my exam, i did study for this subject but when i looked at the paper, it was like i nv study this subject before. Took this subject for the 2nd time and i guess it is a fail again... Bye temasek poly and bye to all my frds there.. guess i will be kick out of school soon... haiss. Went home after the exam, just feeling so low... First thing to do when i reached home was to switch on my computer and after that went to change to a new set of dry and clean clothing... saw my "wife" online... she was also a poor thing... hais... unhappy things happen to her also, i guess life for some ppl is just so unfortunate... really hope everything for her can go well as time passes. So i am thinking now whether i should go back to army or should i go to NYP to study? Nvm guess when the results is out i will know what to do ba...